Upppdateing.
lol not realy any news to be told..
well my Gf's cusins went back to mexico
i dont like her cusin Vivel.. at all.
if you look in my journal "So ive decided.." youll understand why.
hmm.. well i start school on the 20th
its going to be awsome, im sure
but to bad Margarita is realy scared lol.
i wish i could get her to like herself for who she is
every time i look at her i see someone beautiful,
every time im near her i feel like im in heaven,
people love to look at her, some people like to just stop and stare,
she dosnt know why they stare,
'why do they wanna look at me.. im just an ugly fat peace of shit' She says.
she looks in the mirror and wants to look away,
i tell her time and time again,
'your not fat, your not shit, your beautiful..',
but sadly my words are scilenced,
by her negative thoughts tward herself.
and now i feel horrible, my thoughts begin to turn dark,
i feel like crap, i feel suicidal,
i love her,
but she cant hear me.
many people want her,
but she dosnt belive them,
'why would anybody want me?? im worthless..' she would say,
mabe someday,
mabe someday... she'll realize how stunning and beautiful she realy is.